Intense Sympathy & Procastination?

So this weekend was a little different from my other weekends. It was one in which I told myself that I need to STOP procrastinating and just get things DONE! So although it was REALLY late, I was able to finish a lot of the work that I wanted to get done (that meant I only had an hour and a half of sleep >.< last night)

I found this video on self hypnosis on youtube --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=45VzxdQvfok and it kind of worked for me after I listened to the lady. I REALLY got a lot of work done today so who knows, it might help you too if you are a MAJOR procrastinator like me lol

On the other hand, for some reason I feel really simpathetic towards my brother today. We were on the train and all of a sudden he got this RANDOM headache and it was so bad he had to drop down on the floor of the train. The lady next to us thought that he was sick. At first I was annoyed because he probably didn't sleep much last night... what is it about Maple Story that's so addicting anyway?? But then I felt bad later on. It was a feeling of INTENSE SYMPATHY too, not like "I feel bad," it was "I FEEL REALLY BAD." I don't know, it was a pretty random feeling, maybe it's been a while since I had to take on the "caring brother" role. Most of the time, I just tell him to suck it up fool, but not today LOL I'm pretty mean I know XD

Well it's been a pretty productive day and I hope everyday's day was the same =) nahhh? lol I know it's a Monday, but 2 more weeks till spring BREAK =) yayyy!!

Reflection

Have you ever had one of those moments when out of the ordinary you just started thinking about your future? It's like one of those times when you start questioning whether or not you belong where you are today? Well today I had one of those moments and that got me thinking a lot about my future.

First, what crossed my mind was whether or not I was truly interested in my major (pharmacy). It is definitely NOT subject in which I would love to be involved in for the other half, or longer, part of my life. I really don't understand why I chose it to begin with. It was definitely a last minute thing. I was scrolling through the list of majors while I was applying and PharmD seemed to be the most appealing. In fact, for each of the school that I applied to, I had a different major selected. It was PharmD for MCP and Northeastern; Pre-med for BU, Tufts & Umass Amherst; and like Business for BC or something similar (can't remember). Yeah, that was how I decided my major because I only got into 3 schools and the only 1 I could afford was MCPHS so then that was how I got into PharmD.

I guess I am not TOTALLY un-interested in pharmacy because out of all the different areas of study, science is most definitely my favorite, ESPECIALLY CHEMISTRY. Keep in my mind that I absolutely HATE biology, which was why BU was not an option (plus, they gave too little $). However, if something comes along, such as along the lines of me getting approached on the street for a singing or dancing contract, I WOULD TOTALLY take it in a heartbeat. Thus, pharmacy became the most LOGICAL choice for me, not one that I necessarily think is the best. Then again, what I deem ideal (like flying to Korean to become a singer/dancer) is wayyy too unrealistic >.<

So yeah that was my moment of reflection upon myself. My biggest regret was not fully considering my options, nor really taken the time to go seek them. I am a very adventurous person, and standing behind a counter handing out drugs all day doesn't really give me that satisfaction. I guess like every other pharmacist out there, I am only in it for the money. Money makes life better so hopefully mine will not be an exception.

Maybe I should have applied to some forensics school to utilize chemistry in a way that's more active and engaging... then again I won't have money. So the bottom line is, what's more important? Money or Passion? OF COURSE MONEY!! Passion doesn't keep people out of poverty. Therefore, it's best to find something in between =) which I am right now, so I guess it's not all that bad lol

I F*CKING HATE THE MBTA & FRIDAYS!!

So I just woke up from my sleep, and god I dread and look forward to Fridays every week. Happy that it's finally the weekend (with this Monday off Wooo!) and dreading over the fact that I have a 3 hour long biology lab every Friday. Biology is just that ONE subject that no matter how hard I try, I still won't get it, which explains why I got a 56 on my first exam >.<>.< Then when I changed over to the Red Line, I noticed that every stop on the other Red Line, which goes in the opposite direction, had a train. Once ONE TRAIN is delayed, EVERY TRAIN IS DELAYED... not to mention that some people on the train are very agressive! God, public transportation... can't live with it, can't live without it. Well only 5 and a half more years of transportation torture for me... sigh..

I Wish the Snow Angels Will Hear My Prayers Tonight

Right now it looks pretty snowy outside and I hope it becomes worse lol. The worser it gets the better, we need a bad day (or rather a good day for me) once in a while. I remember that one time back in 8th grade when we didn't have school for a WHOLE week, it was great. I don't know if colleges have their students "make up" days or not, but from the looks of things they don't. Wouldn't that be great to stay home for a week and not have to make up it in the summer?

I will be praying for "FOOTS" of snow tonight, the more the better. But really, if we do have school tomorrow regardless of the weather, then please don't snow so much because I'm a poor commuter =(

Is It Possible for Time to Freeze?

Sometimes I wish that time can just stop so that I have more time to get things done in my life. Why did the days seem like an eternity when we were younger, but now they seem to flash by so fast? There are often moments when I wish that I had not grown up, maybe then will I find happiness in being as carefree as a child. Sometimes I question whether what I'm doing right now will really lead me to true happiness in the future...

On a side, I finished my layout just like I promised. This layout centers around the color scheme orange and features my top favorite Korean idols =) New songs will be upload soon and remember that you must use Internet Explorer in order to activate the music playlist!

Think Positively?

So today I learned in psychology that just by "thinking" positively, you can improve your overall health. Now I think that's pretty "obvious" to some people but who ever really takes the time to think to themselves "Gee, I should think more positively so I can become healthier." So yeah, now that this concept is tucked away under my brain, I will refer back to it whenever I'm starting to feel sick... I WILL THINK MORE POSITIVELY =)

And no, I didn't forget about the new layout. It will be done by the end of this week as promised!

1 YEAR BLOG ANNIVERSARY!! =D

Oh boy, where do I start...

So basically, today marks the one year anniversary date from the very first time that I posted my blog entry. Thus, I thought it is special enough to update today. I was gonna make a new layout to go with this "special" occasion, but unfortunately, I have not finished. I SWEAR college is FULL of work left and right and you NEVER run out of things to do. Right now, my life is just rapidly rushing by and every day is a new challenge to see how much work I can do. Unfortunately, this "pile" of work will never cease to exist no matter how much work I put into it. I'll get NO break until vacation >.<

So I will try to finish up the layout little by little so expect something new by the end of this week =) until then... good luck to everybody who is constantly trying to pull his or her life together just like me! XD