Wow!! I can't believe that vacation is already halfway over. I remember back then the days used to seem so long. It seems like the seconds would just pass by like turtles, but now they seem to soar by like birds. I feel like I am running out of time...
I wish I can go back to being a kid... there were no stress, no worries, and no major responsibilities.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
The True Human Nature: Selfish & Inconsiderate
I'm sorry but this going to turn into another rash about how much I hate people. Like I have stated before, the closer we get to graduation, the more I begin to see things more clearly for some reason. The closer we get to June 7th, the closer I realize that I can no longer tolerate some of the behaviors at RHS. In general, PEOPLE SICKEN ME!
Maybe it's only because I have reached my limit or maybe it's because my mind has matured by like 100000000x this year, but I feel so aggrivated lately with everything! Asian Night, NHS, AP's, and PEOPLE are all causing me to feel very stressed out. I'm okay with the things that I have to deal with for Asian Night, NHS, and my AP classes because I know that I signed up for these things and therefore I have no complaints. However, it's the attitude and behavior of a majority of the people at the school that just makes me SICK!
I feel like it has become an increasing trend each day that somebody would always ask me for my school work. EVERYDAY this happens and I'm really sick of it. Sometimes people would legitly take my work and don't remember to give them back until I ask for them. Honesely, I don't mind you taking my work and copying it then and there but when you take it for 2 weeks and then I ask for it back and you go, "I'm not done copying," then that just irritates me. This makes me feel like you consider my work shit until it serves some sort of benefit to you.
I am so busy with all of the things that I have in life, but I feel like nobody gives a damn. I am constantly being sought down by people who wants to "see" my work EVERYDAY. I seriously don't even have time to study on many ocassions and the next day people would ask me if they could borrow my "study guide books" and my "notes." This is one of the reasons why I don't take notes anymore because literally I'm just taking notes for people who wants to burrow them later on. What's worse is that I know people go home and procrastinate or go out and party and all that jazz. Then they realized "Oh shit, I have a test tomorrow, but that's okay I'll just ask ANH!" Seriously, this is what I feel like people are doing and I will not tolerate it anymore.
Yes, I'm number 2 of the class and yes I'm the salututorian, but I'm ONLY HUMAN like the rest of you! One time somebody told me that I'm different, because I'm "naturally smart." Although I should feel flattered, I don't because that's saying I get the grades that I do "natually" and that's not true at all. I'm only human, not GOD, so stop thinking that. TAKE THAT THOUGHT OUT OF YOUR MIND ASAP!
Basically from now on, I will no longer be distributing my work to anybody anymore. I'm fine with teaching you if you need help when I feel like it, but I will no longer be your automatic notepad where you can go to whenever you feel like slacking. I too slack, but I have never asked anybody for their work and hold on to them for more than 1 class period unless I'm not in school. I realize and understand that all humans are innately selfish and inconsiderate, but seriously this is overdoing it!
Maybe it's only because I have reached my limit or maybe it's because my mind has matured by like 100000000x this year, but I feel so aggrivated lately with everything! Asian Night, NHS, AP's, and PEOPLE are all causing me to feel very stressed out. I'm okay with the things that I have to deal with for Asian Night, NHS, and my AP classes because I know that I signed up for these things and therefore I have no complaints. However, it's the attitude and behavior of a majority of the people at the school that just makes me SICK!
I feel like it has become an increasing trend each day that somebody would always ask me for my school work. EVERYDAY this happens and I'm really sick of it. Sometimes people would legitly take my work and don't remember to give them back until I ask for them. Honesely, I don't mind you taking my work and copying it then and there but when you take it for 2 weeks and then I ask for it back and you go, "I'm not done copying," then that just irritates me. This makes me feel like you consider my work shit until it serves some sort of benefit to you.
I am so busy with all of the things that I have in life, but I feel like nobody gives a damn. I am constantly being sought down by people who wants to "see" my work EVERYDAY. I seriously don't even have time to study on many ocassions and the next day people would ask me if they could borrow my "study guide books" and my "notes." This is one of the reasons why I don't take notes anymore because literally I'm just taking notes for people who wants to burrow them later on. What's worse is that I know people go home and procrastinate or go out and party and all that jazz. Then they realized "Oh shit, I have a test tomorrow, but that's okay I'll just ask ANH!" Seriously, this is what I feel like people are doing and I will not tolerate it anymore.
Yes, I'm number 2 of the class and yes I'm the salututorian, but I'm ONLY HUMAN like the rest of you! One time somebody told me that I'm different, because I'm "naturally smart." Although I should feel flattered, I don't because that's saying I get the grades that I do "natually" and that's not true at all. I'm only human, not GOD, so stop thinking that. TAKE THAT THOUGHT OUT OF YOUR MIND ASAP!
Basically from now on, I will no longer be distributing my work to anybody anymore. I'm fine with teaching you if you need help when I feel like it, but I will no longer be your automatic notepad where you can go to whenever you feel like slacking. I too slack, but I have never asked anybody for their work and hold on to them for more than 1 class period unless I'm not in school. I realize and understand that all humans are innately selfish and inconsiderate, but seriously this is overdoing it!
Friday, April 17, 2009
vAcAtIoN... or NOT!!
Oh gosh this vacation is going to SUCK, so much to do yet so little time. I wish I had magic powers to create more time; that would be awesome.
Well I'll get through it one way or another, HAPPY VACATION Y'ALL!! =)
Well I'll get through it one way or another, HAPPY VACATION Y'ALL!! =)
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Responsibilities, Priorities, and Will
Today was a good day, it would have been better if I had gotten more sleep last night but at least I didn't faint lol.
Well today I got to see the YELLOW DRESS play in school. It was supposed to be only for juniors but I got to come see since I was helping out. The play was a one-person monologue about a young high school girl who was involved in an abusive relationship. She could not get away and in the end was killed due to a fatal mistake. The purpose of the play is to show the consequences of domestic violence but it also helped me to see the various options that we have in life.
Just like in any situation, we always have more than 1 choice. The key point is how are we going to approach the situation and find an ideal solution. I realize that depending on our goals and values, each of us will choose very different options within our broad range of choices. Regardless of what we decide to do, we should always ask ourselves "is this what I really want to do?" If this question can be answered "yes" with no qualms, then we should proceed with our decision and don't look back at it with regret.
At the same time, each person has very different priorities and responsibilities. These two characterisitics are important in trying to maintain our role in life, which is also very different from one to person to another. I have finally realized that it's very wrong to try to put my priorities over others'. It's selfish and I don't like it when I see myself that way. However, at the same time, I also feel like as long as you have the WILL to advance and make time for yourself, anything can be done.
From my experience today, I have decided that from this point onward I will try my best to be honest and sincere but at the same time consider others' feelings. Sometimes that's hard to do, but I shall learn how to... I refuse to let disbelief take over my smile and cheerfulness!
P.S. I strongly encourage freshmen, sophomores, and juniors to become involved with YOUTH SPEAK. Not only have I learned so much about techniques in dealing with my problems, I have also learned a lot about myself.
Well today I got to see the YELLOW DRESS play in school. It was supposed to be only for juniors but I got to come see since I was helping out. The play was a one-person monologue about a young high school girl who was involved in an abusive relationship. She could not get away and in the end was killed due to a fatal mistake. The purpose of the play is to show the consequences of domestic violence but it also helped me to see the various options that we have in life.
Just like in any situation, we always have more than 1 choice. The key point is how are we going to approach the situation and find an ideal solution. I realize that depending on our goals and values, each of us will choose very different options within our broad range of choices. Regardless of what we decide to do, we should always ask ourselves "is this what I really want to do?" If this question can be answered "yes" with no qualms, then we should proceed with our decision and don't look back at it with regret.
At the same time, each person has very different priorities and responsibilities. These two characterisitics are important in trying to maintain our role in life, which is also very different from one to person to another. I have finally realized that it's very wrong to try to put my priorities over others'. It's selfish and I don't like it when I see myself that way. However, at the same time, I also feel like as long as you have the WILL to advance and make time for yourself, anything can be done.
From my experience today, I have decided that from this point onward I will try my best to be honest and sincere but at the same time consider others' feelings. Sometimes that's hard to do, but I shall learn how to... I refuse to let disbelief take over my smile and cheerfulness!
P.S. I strongly encourage freshmen, sophomores, and juniors to become involved with YOUTH SPEAK. Not only have I learned so much about techniques in dealing with my problems, I have also learned a lot about myself.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
RHS ASIAN NIGHT 2009!!
OHH I'M FINALLY DONE WITH THE POSTER/FLYER!!
Please Come Watch Asian Night 2009. Support the Club, but more importantly come support ME!! =)
Please Come Watch Asian Night 2009. Support the Club, but more importantly come support ME!! =)
Thursday, April 9, 2009
I HATE ASIAN CLUB!!
Okay, it is official, I HATE ASIAN CLUB WITH A PASSION! It is no longer the club that I want to go to and commit my time to anymore!
I remember back in freshmen year when I would rush to Asian Club everyday after school because I did not want to be late to the meeting. Back in 06' EVERYBOY worked and they seemed to all be enjoying themselves. It was fun just WATCHING them practice. I remember the first time that I participtaed in a dance in 07'. It was the best experience of my life and it was SO MUCH fun. However, since then Asian Club has drastically decayed. It is not something that I want to put time and effort into anymore because it is a TOTAL waste of time.
Sometimes I feel like I put so much effort into Asian Club, but I get nothing back. As a secretary of NHS, I get praised for making it into the club AND when I graduate, a symbol of NHS will be imprinted onto my graduation certificate. How honorable is that? As vice president of class council, I get to plan the events of my class and I get to work with officers who are so dedicated; most importantly, I get to plan PROM at GILLETTE STADIUM this year. But as an Asian Club Officer, what do I get? No recognition by the members, no enjoying myself at events like Game Night and RACO, and most importantly, nobody in the club is truly thankful of what I do for them.
So why do I keep hanging onto this club? I ask myself questions like this all the time. Why do I skip extra help sessions to go to Asian Club? Why do I miss out on Community Service opportunities to come to Asian Club when I need 60 hours to GRADUATE? Why do I miss out on getting EXTRA CREDIT for my AP classes? I just don't understand why I do what I do. I really care for this club but all I get in return is (excuse my language) SH*T!
Therefore, I have decided that sometimes it is best to just let go and stop trying to revive something that is destined to die. Rather than argue my way through, I will just drop it peacefully...
From now on, I will no longer regard Asian Club as "important" anymore. If I have time, I will come, if I don't have time, well then F*CK it because I don't care anymore!
P.S. Sorry if I sounded nasty, but I have reached beyond my breaking limit. All I can say to the club right now is "GOOD LUCK NEXT YEAR!" because you WILL need it...
I remember back in freshmen year when I would rush to Asian Club everyday after school because I did not want to be late to the meeting. Back in 06' EVERYBOY worked and they seemed to all be enjoying themselves. It was fun just WATCHING them practice. I remember the first time that I participtaed in a dance in 07'. It was the best experience of my life and it was SO MUCH fun. However, since then Asian Club has drastically decayed. It is not something that I want to put time and effort into anymore because it is a TOTAL waste of time.
Sometimes I feel like I put so much effort into Asian Club, but I get nothing back. As a secretary of NHS, I get praised for making it into the club AND when I graduate, a symbol of NHS will be imprinted onto my graduation certificate. How honorable is that? As vice president of class council, I get to plan the events of my class and I get to work with officers who are so dedicated; most importantly, I get to plan PROM at GILLETTE STADIUM this year. But as an Asian Club Officer, what do I get? No recognition by the members, no enjoying myself at events like Game Night and RACO, and most importantly, nobody in the club is truly thankful of what I do for them.
So why do I keep hanging onto this club? I ask myself questions like this all the time. Why do I skip extra help sessions to go to Asian Club? Why do I miss out on Community Service opportunities to come to Asian Club when I need 60 hours to GRADUATE? Why do I miss out on getting EXTRA CREDIT for my AP classes? I just don't understand why I do what I do. I really care for this club but all I get in return is (excuse my language) SH*T!
Therefore, I have decided that sometimes it is best to just let go and stop trying to revive something that is destined to die. Rather than argue my way through, I will just drop it peacefully...
From now on, I will no longer regard Asian Club as "important" anymore. If I have time, I will come, if I don't have time, well then F*CK it because I don't care anymore!
P.S. Sorry if I sounded nasty, but I have reached beyond my breaking limit. All I can say to the club right now is "GOOD LUCK NEXT YEAR!" because you WILL need it...
Monday, April 6, 2009
The Hardest Part of Life: Making Decisions
I have never been a really good decision maker all my life. In fact, I am probably the most indecisive person you will ever come across. I mean on many occasions, I have actually been faced with having to make a decision between picking one video game or another for over 2 hours only to decide in the end that we not choose either. This time, I am faced with making college decisions, something that I obviously CANNOT go "I won't choose either!" Anyhow here is the list of all the college decisions:
COLLEGE DECISIONS:
-MCPHS [accepted]
-UMASS AMHERST [accepted]
-NORTHEASTERN [waitlisted]
-BOSTON COLLEGE [waitlisted]
-BOSTON UNIVERSITY [waitlisted]
-TUFTS [rejected]
Well obviously the choice is now between UMASS AMHERST and MCPHS, and to be honest, I am kind of leaning towards MCPHS. The only thing that might hold me back is the money part, but I think owing $10,000 a year might not be so bad taking into consideration that I nearly make about $5,000 working in the summer (that is, IF I decided to take that path). So there you have it, the school that I will commit myself to: Massachusetts College of Pharmacy & Health Sciences. I read online today that MCPHS is actually ranked as the 4th best Pharmacy school in the nation. Sounds pretty intriguing ehh? Maybe I will be very satisfied with this decision, but hey if it just so happens that NORTHEASTERN decides to change their mind and accept me along with a BIG financial aid package, then maybe I will reconsider. Anything is possible! lol
COLLEGE DECISIONS:
-MCPHS [accepted]
-UMASS AMHERST [accepted]
-NORTHEASTERN [waitlisted]
-BOSTON COLLEGE [waitlisted]
-BOSTON UNIVERSITY [waitlisted]
-TUFTS [rejected]
Well obviously the choice is now between UMASS AMHERST and MCPHS, and to be honest, I am kind of leaning towards MCPHS. The only thing that might hold me back is the money part, but I think owing $10,000 a year might not be so bad taking into consideration that I nearly make about $5,000 working in the summer (that is, IF I decided to take that path). So there you have it, the school that I will commit myself to: Massachusetts College of Pharmacy & Health Sciences. I read online today that MCPHS is actually ranked as the 4th best Pharmacy school in the nation. Sounds pretty intriguing ehh? Maybe I will be very satisfied with this decision, but hey if it just so happens that NORTHEASTERN decides to change their mind and accept me along with a BIG financial aid package, then maybe I will reconsider. Anything is possible! lol
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Green: The Color of Spring
Well Spring is here and so are new hopes for the furture. Enjoy the new layout and songs! =)
Thursday, April 2, 2009
I'm Sorry That Life Is SOOOOO BUSY!
Once again I have fallen into a slight "blog coma" and I'm sorry for not having updated since last week. This weekend I will work on a new layout with a new theme plus new songs and I promise after MAY, this site will be updated regularly just like before. I SWEAR! =)
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